Poetry update

What have we learned

Passing through, you might learn a thing or two -
you might even love again if it don't kill you
They loved you once - that much is true
Now what do you know? its gone
‘New ways of being’, the words -they used to say
‘We’re through’

But who’s unhappy now? there's these holes
and they weigh pretty heavy sometimes
‘cause we carry them everywhere we go
we’ve all got watercolors flowing in and out
soft and silent, safe and close
Sure - they loved you, loved you with all they had
You had them - and the matter to lose

Man, if you knew then
what you've come to know now would you just cut that bubble
 loose from its golden tether and free you from it all
Would you still have all the multicolored pieces
of that beautiful thing to hold and  -
now that its broken - remember
was it all, just meant to be
‘cause you were you
and I was
me?

kayaky

Silent Death



Silent death through indifference

abides in a lonely universe

without the comfort of a small world

It finds miles made of inches

As we are ignored

Then distance grows with self awareness

Then brotherly love, fallen out of fashion

is also out of the question

and healthy interest is out of season

We're left burdened by repetitious visitors

who offer nothing but who hang on,

refusing to leave and who bore us to tears

then to our deaths



kayaky





Trouble Ahead



As the world turns, there'll be a tomorrow

some things will change- some stay the same

But in our search for deeper meaning

we'll find ourselves -  alone to blame



A desert sun is no more evil

that parches lips and leaves us dry

The good and bad that's all around us

depends on who beholds it

The good and bad is in their eyes



Like unmatched shoes along the roadside

though no one's seen and nothings heard

its testament to streets and gutters

telling tales without a word



Or was it wind or just the trees there?

stirring shadows from behind

We sense there's movement all around us

in the darkness we're walking blind



misplaced steps would lead us nowhere

then fail us when there are no signs

and now we've seen the fallen buildings

there is no way to purge our minds



Now fear lies in our darkened spaces

lurking at the bottom of our hearts

there's trouble's brewing on the horizon

Long before the storm clouds rise



But we are gentle, and we're giving

and we can see the way ahead

even though we have our children

decide to wage a war instead





kayaky







The wellspring of Love



We reached for something

we couldn't see

and prayed without belief

for rescue from our desperation

for love and sweet relief

Our prayers tapped into something greater

The source of timeless love

Once share by precious others

*********Have a Nice Day**********

Poetry continued

No,no,no I wish that I could find the words so I could tell you what its like being downtown in the city watching all the people on the street And she don't care - no she's not thinking of me She doesn't know that - I'm alive She don't care - 'sides maybe there's another that's she's in love with - What chance have I? Well I head out on the street until I can get some sleep I know someday soon we'll meet Until that moment ... So I head out on the street hoping somewhere soon we'll meet and until then - baby please Keep looking for me I promise not to be annoying But can you try to understand? I can't keep on the way I'm going cause after all,I'm - just a man No, no, no, don't freak out or say you hate me Just because I've lost my nerve Yes, Yes, Yes - For sure, I'll always love you And I will give you what you deserve Well I head out on the street until I can get some sleep I know someday soon we'll meet Until that moment ... So I head out on the street hoping somewhere soon we'll meet and until then - baby please Keep looking for me kayaky Back to the top Render unto Caesar The price of love is paid these days in blood and sweat and tears
where nothing in this world is free and our pleasures cause us fear
No wishes made for peace and harmony within this universe or hope for true love is delivered
as love through us alone is cursed unless Caesar has approved it
A simple smile, or glance between us shall raise the wrath of God
and summer storms of sixth degree that all should fail their cause
and leave us shattered on the street and wounded by the laws
but kings and queens show deference to their subject's supplication
and pass their judgement more cautiously to the weak's humiliation
Or better still the mangey few who understood at once their need -
and kept them happy where they slept
dreaming we all are the fools in glass and stone they seek
but who actually throw them biscuits, floral wrapped
so the mighty once placated may suffer us the love we share
or less likely confiscate it
For no Caesar could command that force, -our love cannot be earned
or gained in battle to the death such love would just be spurned
Its fused in spirit not the flesh
no way to change the heart
Only battered souls coincident
at least this much we've learned kayaky Back to the top

Friendship, love and lust

So what's the way you feel with me? he asked his fair companion the 'what' you guessed- while still feeling fine, she answered in this fashion the friendship, love, and lust I've felt it comes at different times and I've no shame to feel that way when your're with me - oh love of my mine but then the way we were today... we walked and ran and played We've never needed words for fill and time just slipped away I love the satisfaction of days glowing to their end and never have I felt - as fine since I could count you friend but now I find the days are long when you're not by my side I reach for someone who's not there and that's helped me to decide my dear our friendship's simply not enough the sun's setting casts me doubts when you're not close its then I fear to see my setting suns without or arise when you're not near and in the darkest moments of the night I awaken with my soul forsaken and lonely in my lonely bed wishing that empty spot was taken by a friend who is my lover who conjurs lust from love reshapened whose heat is fired by passion creating bliss that has me shaken though today my love is taken tomorrow I will be yours and yours for evermore. kayaky Back to the top

The Fall of Couples

The harvest moon stands witness to constancy of life that finds relief from constancy by changing hearts and strife A chilling change in seasons decay's smelt in the grass rising mist from warmer waters Not frozen yet like glass For yesterday was summer no leaves were on the ground and couples loved each other while warmth was all around But temperatures have fallen cold, nothing grows at night and distant howls are calling desperate prayers by candle light "Will we last the winter with wind borne snow and ice or will we fade to blackness because we chose to fight?" A better change of season to harvest what we sow No need for better reasons as fallen fruit may grow Something deep inside us was planted in the sun that flourishes with snow melt and blooms in everyone kayaky Back to the top

Impressionless

I was taken by the shadow of the moving bus in the sunlit artifacts of morning, leaving impressions, however fleeting, of our presence, first there, then gone, oh how could that be? A beautiful voice caught my ear In the lazy evening, tickling my Interest as it wafted by with sweet tones of love in words that faded into the night I knew they had been but was I dreaming?, just like that they were gone like I'd come and gone watched my shadow move impressing sunlit entities and then within a flickering instant things had passed swept by the waves on seashore sand washed with shells and life Washed footsteps, where my feet had been, where we had been but were no more kayaky Back to the top

Death by Email

too weak to type too steeped in sadness. all this just because retribution was swift pin point accurate like a smart neutron bomb with buildings standing but their humanity gone for without your breath could they breathe? for without your light could they see without you could they live? nourished child left to starve through Mornful afternoon and night when left alone allowed thought and flight from real words that now won't come not the way soul mates would have done i nstead death, all is death and black as the night without your air without your light without you until I was finished but I am finished dying I am finished extinguished my love by love I am done j'expiré kayaky Back to the top

Hollowness

In a world that doesn't owe us anything or anyone I had found my one true love but today she's not beside me memories won't be good enough Its a hollow heart that's in me she's not running at my side and I've had enough of lonely hollowness is deep inside Letting go would be surrender Holding on in pain is rough but I'd bear that pain and sorrow for the memory of her love I know our time is short here fewer seconds left than past and I wonder if the seconds left without her could be traded if I asked I would trade the time without her for another day in love with the woman who once loved me just one day would be enough kayaky

Two Pines

The white pine sapling, barely four feet tall, was planted in the fall of 1865 with the cataclymic collapse of its parent. Felled by a lightning strike, that majestic tree came crashing down to earth, embedding seeds and pine cones into the improbable gravel and rock that would give birth to new life. The great hulk of wood lay across the nearby stream bed serving up a causeway for all, hikers and animals. Over time it had been worn smooth with branches left strategically to offer handholds to those that needed them. Time passes slowly for trees, they don't move much unless the wind blows but there are the movements of animals and humans, sometimes stopping for quick relief, othertimes, snapping off a piece of bark or simply holding them selves up for a good scratch. Across the creek another sapling white pine had stemmed from that same crash. The two of them became aware of each other through the transit of pine nuts and chatter between the squirrels that had adopted them as haunts. The forest chatter boxes could climb then and screech at the neighborhood. A neighborhood, which in general, could care less about screeching and more about the peace and quiet that had settled in since the great storm of '65. But with the passage of years, change took place. That convenient transit point was replaced by humans and their small bridge since the trail that had been used so casually became much busier. The new traffic left the pines alone. The human folk had grown accustomed to the saplings and they'd grown so that in 1917 as the early vehicles started plying the roads, many would stop and admire them while crossing. The two pines had become trees. They'd sway gracefully in the breeze, only vaguely aware of each other, peaceful, graceful, growing imperceptably, oblivious to the traffic while broadening their expanse with the passing of each summer, growing higher, and stronger, roots finding new grabholds, nooks and crannies to hold the earth ever more tightly. Then one day, there arose spirit within them. The hearts of those trees had grown so large that the spirit of the spring could flow into them and remain. Each tree was given its own spirit and the life force within them grew to sustain itself in an awesome presence. No longer were they simply trees but living things with their own righteous place in the universe. At that moment the two, which had been saplings were capable of creating their own pine cones. They wanted to be together but meters and water separated them. So they remained passively, as trees do, patient and reserved as the years passed them by until one spring morning they sensed their outer branches had touched. At that moment a transfer of life force took place between them, a passing of energy and spirit, they had become joined in a most unique way. All that passed their way were moved to stop and admire the now great white pines that reached over the bridge and mingled their branches in an arching canopy. The full reach of those magnificent pines was an inspiration to all that saw them as they had somehow survived the years, and the press of civilization to become forever entwined as one. kayaky Back to the top

The Cold Town

Grim northern town is stirring
the sun, too cold, won't rise
past frigid trees and frozen lakes
all lined by ice blue skies
The cold, cold, ground lies silent
for there is no comfort under snow
that's hard and snaps with footsteps
cursing engines that won't go
Ice fog hangs low on dwellings
smoke eeks up then shivers down
along the barren streetscapes
where dark creatures can be found
cold haunts their doors and windows
for the heat that hides inside
for any spark of warmth that lives
with no fire - no life would thrive
That hardy life in coats and boots
which peeks from touques and smiles
with wooden gestured stiffened breath
and dreams of southern climes

kayaky 

snowflakes

snowflakes
alight in the pale light
some held aloft
dance playfully
among the tree boughs
its christmas time and
love is coming down
moonbeams muffled by moondogs
warm the wintry sky
making my path clear
and bright on this
most wonderful
winter night

kayaky



Merry Christmas



We love snow for christmas

it lets us go and play

In drifts of powdery whiteness

not work our lives away



The luxury of the holidays

Let's sleep past bright sunrise

In goose down cosey sleigh beds

to clear those baggy eyes



And sinful treats that meet us

are chocolat sweet and good

for once a year, this season comes

to eat, its understood



Just give one gift that's frivolous

not practical or plain

a gift that one-  might like to get

not ties, or socks that day



And do something for someone else

but never let them know

its coming from one's inner self

where only goodness flows



Praise the lord or pray you must

This christmas time so white

a prayer from us to change our world

Merry Christmas for all - good night



kayaky *********Have a Nice Day**********

Even more poetry

Killing Time

Time slipped by but I didn't notice 

I was enjoying myself and never looked at my watch 

Time dragged on - boring me to tears 

I looked up but the scenery was unchanging seconds dripped and hung in the hallway 

like socks on a line 

I waited for the rent cheques to come in, the months are too long 

I just paid the rent and now its due again, the months are too short 

What took you so long - 

Man that was fast I think I might have cancer, there's no time to loose 

Slow down there's plenty of time we've got all day 

If I take the 7:05 I can get there five minutes early 

But that bus was five minutes early and I was ten minutes late 

Does anybody really know what time it is 

Hurry up and wait, hurry up and stop all my life is now 

I've waited a lifetime for this, 

I've dreamed of this all my life time is all we have 

so come on lets go and blow some time

kayaky

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The spark betwen us

Do you remember the night our heads touched? between the pit and the pillows. In a strange haze Dreaming, awake or thinking there was a spark between us as our heads touched

Do you remember the light of the spark between us that woke the dream and broke the train of thought the night you got my mind and gave me your body you took my thoughts then drove me home

In hell frozen over on farmer's fields burning too hot one night could burn again as bridges fell and sparks ignited between soul mates

kayaky

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Boomerang

The boomerang to some may be a wondrous machination 

Its flight from hand then back again 

defies ones expectation 

And while we don't expect we'll ever see 

that boomer's flight returned 

Its what we give and get in life 

that's paralleled we've learned 

Thrown from hand and left forgotten 

its not gone at all you see 

Just on its way in space and time 

and turning back to thee 

all coming back in ways unknown, 

forgotten it just might 

with equal force to that once thrown return in kind or fight

kayaky

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Thoughts

When as a boy with no thoughts at all No words to think and life a ball older now with much in mind just white and black in a simpler time

Now wondering if thoghts make one blessed or burden the soul when the soul should rest not think the thought but stop to feel since thoughts on their own only cheapen whats real

Looked all around and what did we see people who once thought but still choose to be living and laughing and crying with those whose choose to live simply sharing life as it goes

but there are others who ache intheir hearts long for another, not their minds, but those parts of the lvoer that loves them, yes craving them too needing to be with them like I'm needing you

and others are happy but their words ring hollow Their eyes look past us thinking of loved ones they recollect They're not really happy but filled with regret wishing they spent more time holding hands not arguing points or debating their plans with thoughts like mine rushing like blood in the brain thoughts like my words falling empty in pain

trembling thoughts which through heart seem to say look now to the future forget yesterday but the tomorrow I've got - and a present won't wait its the present we need more than what's at the gate

Future uncertain not ours to be sure only for thinking and hoping they were today is the blessing and feeling so right I chooe to be with you each day and night

kayaky

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The time of our life

Where are those moments when things seemed so right? 

We must have been sleeping when life was that bright 

It passed us i moments so fleeting like paintings of colours and textures workth keeping 

passively living that we don't even try tides roll in moments 

and they just passed us by 

No wanting or waiting till moments are through living each moment 

because I'm with you 

Finding in new ways with chapters begun without ever knowing 

the moment is done 

Moments aren't beter when looking back then 

older and wiser they won't cheat us again 

but too busy fighting and bucking the flow 

We don't notice the thief when he comes to the door 

Its time picking pockets and moments of life

snatching those moments when things seemed so right 

Another day comes we waste not one minute more 

We'll absorb it and feel it and let our hearts soar 

Each moment now while our hearts are still beating 

Releasing our minds leave the heart that is seeing 

Living each moment the best way we can 

Ask for God's mercy should that moment end 

Not asking for moments when things seemed so right 

since time slips away like a thief in the night 

not wanting or waiting til one moment is through 

just sharing each moment, because I love you

kayaky

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Choices and Consequences

Cast upon celestial sphere lie countless points of light 

Stars that shine hang deep beyond the boundless edge of night 

Cardinal winds lift wings up high upon their holy flight 

Seven seas roll high and vast, tossed on by godly might

Mountains dwelling unimpressed 

on continents that move teeming billions breath the sky 

and share each breath with you 

Whose beating heart and pulse of life 

could not be found untrue 

Great forces that have joined us here now ask what we will do

You look at me as I at you and wonder just the same 

Are you the one completing life, the reason why we came? 

Existing upon the earth in some great plan sustained 

or just another passing ship upon life's shifting main?

No heartaches worse than loveless cursed, if their love is discarded 

No hole is deep enough to hide in darkness once they've parted 

Declared love scorned, left shunned and alone, not just broken hearted 

For if one asked for love again, would not another just be started

Why would ask if they were sure, their choice if ever made 

for finding one they felt they loved, that place should never trade 

God help the souls who would ever doubt their choice if doubt infiltrate 

The flood which flows will decimate best plans if ever laid

Can love so strong survive, not wither look where once were lovers 

now two strangers lie with no passion, and no meaning, no cause for which to try 

Just motions passed through endless days, if love there, they deny

But love, will endure, both time and space, 

yet some it grows still stronger and two were friends - and nothing more - 

will find that each will long for the time the spend may never end, 

and then they start to wonder If their lover were meant to be, 

then apart they' d be no longer

So as the sun will rise, and cross the sky, beyond a love's December 

and tears were cried and friends have died, long after they remember 

as old and grey those two who stayed through life are still together 

their love was strong yes strong enough stand what others could not weather

But what's hard to grasp in all of this 

is how in God's creation 

That two had met and fell in love and sealed their new formation 

Through one embrace, a kiss or touch, 

within this constellation 

still a better match could not be made 

in wildest imagination

kayaky

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The changing Face of time

When rays descent upon its face shadows fall, but leave no trace 

They measure time and then erase all signs of what had taken place 

Light and darkness dance on its base and quickly vanish with a haze 

oblique lines that mark our phase, its time escaping time we waste

Time that's passed is not replaced, and time observed 

upon that face will weem to linger, it will not race, 

until at last averting gaze we find that time has taken days, 

and months then years and left in grace and looking back from golden age, 

thank good for life and sing his praise

Now quickly flashes lighs and beams, 

we move at speed of light it seems no time to sleep, 

no time to call, 

our life has just turned digital blinking , 

flashing, flitting red, there's numbers moving by our bed 

we know the time in seven zones 

with wires' running through our homes 

the face of time has changed for we 

who cannot stop to even breathe 

and when we die good chance we'll see 

computers tell us when to leave

connected by exotic threads, 

their brains no longer fill their heads electrodes sparking 

all along they have no need for flesh and bone 

no arms, no legs, they can't forget their life's become an internet 

so alpha an omega, their bottled life goes on 

they've come to see the future but the face of time has gone

kayaky

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Ode to a Rose

Surrounded by thin walls of serenity there beats a restless heart pressing in on complacency which causes one o start ehn wondering if the time has come to once again depart you'd leave comfort and safety - escape from hell is art.

Sitting on a tin roof, baked too hot by sun a need to move materialized, and now you want to run away from simple lassitude, still you reach toward no one A peculiarly human choice, a choice is clearly none

Away, fly away, from thiose most close to you for as they gather near they might just see the darkest side and thoughts of it strike fear your empty heart cannot escape from eyes thy pry and tear the mask has dropped and left behind the one inside the mirror Look back at me oh changing face you are not really in control You're merely moving with the flow with those upon the road Each step you take just leads fruther fromt he only path you've known but perhaps some day, and some other place, you'll finally be at home

But happy days have long since passed and days weill seem to fly A life that's planned but meaningless, why do you even try? Still plan you do, and so neat and clean your selves are high and dry God forbid a speck of dust should drift and settle by

What is that suit of cloths you wear? How did you get that life? Possessed too much then sold it all, left children and a wife? Your shiny place in some new town has taken a high price Just carry on, each day anew with each friend you valuize

What good is life when theire's no love and love you'd have to earn what good is love that you receive giving nothing in return so having loved they found their love was destined to be spurned and hands that felt the flame are shay after they were burned

You find your road is strainght and like a stretching wire the side trips that you thought you'd take never do transpire knowing how your path had started you know it leads no where you leave one hell to find the next until that dream expires

so you're never tired, still you can't sleep You're never sad but find no peace You're not alone, you have your' friends they just come around and leave again

kayaky

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The universe and mr. Potato head

The deep distant domain of the gods defies our penetration our pathetic probes and telescopes are no better than our imagination But ist as far as any of us have seen and we haven't seen a fraction of it yet Looking skyward into the vst blueness is as close to infinity as we can get "What's out there in the great beyond?" so many have asked are we on some odd loop that circles round and merely takes us back universe expanding or galzxies contracting, stars exploding what a place! in all the sky that we can see there is no other earth or even a trace of life that will speak to us - and how lonely that can be Because our little globe of blue and white is the only one we see

so frustrated we turne our search inwards and proudly line up atoms on shiny wafers of tin but just as before we are stymied and stumped as their size retreats within There is no way for us to tell if our atoms interact we sense somehow that its our chemistry that attracts with tiny fragments so small and so fast their passing right through neutrinos, quarks and photons, are attracting me and you

Deep within the mind of Mr. Potato head is a growing awareness of who we are and what we've done and said but our efforts to poke and probe and see the way things really are don't fully give the answers or the guide we seek the sum will never equal the parts what's lumped and split informs us - but our wisdom remains weak

kayaky

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Dying embers

Will you stay with me - and talk with me for just a little while? Right here by the fire even though you must be tired and hold me for a moment but one that just might last until the moment comes the morning and the evenings' past

but the fire is out, whilte the embers still glow you've gone off to bed and the light is all low But my need was too great, - I had hoped that you'd know And I wish you had asked me before leaving to go

kayaky

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Snow Worship

Winter's my religion on a bright december day 

sifting through fresh fallen flakes 

wearing snowshoes on the trail 

mother winter holds me, her blanket made of snow 

father sky bestowes me with his peaceful blue and cold 

dazzling solar diamonds, dress the white and frozen crust 

a frosty feast and wonderland of wind blown angel's dust 

crisp shadows cross my path and point me to the south 

strobing sunlight through the trees - erasing any doubts 

seasons reassure me, winter's constant like the sun 

promising renewal - not salvation should it come 

wrapped in wintry silence - seeming lifeless but soon reborn 

from dormancy to flourish just as life will be restored

kayaky

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Tell me

Will you come and meet with me underneath the moon? in darkness bathed in lightness just like we used to do each cycle of the planet with the silver orb in sky was something I would long for just knowing you'd be mine

Our fingers dripped with moonlight cast through the window sill Your hair with golden firelight - a memory haunts me still my hands felt the silken smoothness and softenss of your skin returned by sweet caresses and the heat that burned within

A vision in the temple of love illuminated would rise before the alter as we wildly consumated naken passion moved and pulsed together in the night our heaving bodies drench with sweat which shimmered inthe light

abnd when we both were finished minds numb and bodies spent lying there as hearts beat down to synchopated rest no sweeter moment has there been as drifting off to sleep I felt your body nest to mine and love ran true and deep

Such is the rush of temporal code that flashes as I dream an image of us locked in time we two will only see But dreams are not enough for me - I need to know you're there wanting all the things I do - that dream is meant to share

Tell me now you'll meet with me with the moon is cycling high and shine yourself upon me as the starlight tumbles by The work may spin in silence but we will join and fly far far from terra firm, those souls ignited cannot die

kayaky

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Musical Sex

The knife blades chopping, clacking, slicing snipping rythmically clipping The piston pump's pumping - snorkling, pocca pocketing musically thumping The steam engine's steaming - chug chuggalug chugging

Are we really like that - we try not to think so 

WE make music panting and heaving sighing and sometimes laughting and crying when cold humans come together though coldly it is a prick -ly pot of mechanical parts and picks So their vibrating tool is humming, clicking and whirring 

Strangely, its satisfying, while buzzing and tantalizing 

she with wet lips and fingers fools herself as she dreams on but sooths herself too and he is no better plays it all by ear, 

beat beat beating whap whap whapping and drum drum drumming with his one good hand 

Its a caccaphony of misery when playing in the one man band 

They coming together - moaning and groaning huffing and puffing, 

squeaknig and shaking as they rattle and roll slurping and sucking as they are passionately fucking until symbols clashing their music is gone 

ah but somewhere in the distant hills the memory of that melody echoes still like some catchy tune you can't turn off compelling you to play it again, and again and again since you first heard it in the distance or through the wall in some small town 

where a pickup group was a pickin and a grinnin or as a nifty little ditty in a disco city where the beat when on and on

kayaky

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Between Us

Things between us cannot be seen, nor can they be heard

No dangerous words too hot in frigid lands

like gental touching - skin on skin by urgent longing hands

Or voices that beseech us in a dimly lit recess

encouraging our lips and tongue to places never guessed

Things between us cannot be seen or heard

unseen - the redness, unfelt the wetness

of swollen parts that ache and crave their desperate release

unheard gasping bodies lying blissful once they're spent

Unread minds, not of this world - ecstatic, heaven sent

those things that come are between us, unknown

and too powerful for mated souls

unknown musk beneath a moon soaked in sultry sounding jazz

unspeakable candlelit moments which dare to be cried out

As they are between us and no one else

Stripped of daily burdens - painful memories are obscured

by love and lust imagined

then unknown, by us procured

kayaky

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The Summer of Susan

Love's a funny thing You don't look for it, 

it finds you and when it hits - oh lordy 

Do the senses come alive with the brush of skin on skin 

stirring a dizziness while the sweetness of those kisses could never end

Older and wiser though far from invulnerable one summer 

He'd lost his resolve, finding himself unlike he'd been before 

with masks stripped and the borders dropped 

He stood bare -heart on his sleeve

Unless you'd turned to ice, and were frozen to the core 

I'm sure you'd have known the deal, and if you'd seen this all before 

with faith restored you'd know those feelings were real 

and wouldn't soon be leaving that scene

It was the summer that he met Susan the summer 

that changed everything and he was wondering what to do 

when he checked out of the deep freeze into the warm summer air

Then came their questions, the uncertainty about the future 

quite rightly

but who gives a care about the future 

when the one you love is right in front of you?

Then came their plans, the hope about life 

which we need for survival, which is the meaning of life 

our dependence on another day yet to come for salvation

Then came their schemes 

The intricate webs of truth and dare borne of minds on fire and hearts of passion 

whose point was the focus of two people 

longing for each other at any cost

Yet to come, the moments rehearsed a thousand times 

played out in slow motion but never exactly as imagined 

making our explanations after the fact 

after the decisions are all said and done 

because their hearts had made the decisions for them

Now he'd had his summer of Susan and 

He'd be needing the rest of his life with her too

kayaky

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Lady of the light

The lady of the light she comes 

to pass from room to room upon the heels of night with wax - upon the verge of truth

The silence of the evening brings her solitude enough and candles lit release her soul transcending it with love and peace as ghostly tapers glow

The shades of lighness dance and fall she moves from room to room upon the heels of night with dreams where no one else intrudes

The lady of the night with light the glow cast room by room her silent temple of the night in light with hope imbued

she sees the light and sees her life and longs for love renewed

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Three words

I told him so many times in different ways how much I loved him those were my words not his And though the time we spent together -was meaningful days had passed not having heard what my thoughts had turned But he just couldn't say the words Just three words he could but would not say the words I longed to hear

But I had felt the impact of those words they weren't easy -not easy to say until they had never been so true then they flowed like time into the future with hope as their star But he just couldn't say those words three words he couldn't say the words I longed to hear

Then years had passed us together happily snuggled in our bed or smiling on the range laughing in the wind and sun He never ever said those words and yet we are still one while others had come and gone He remains today He couldn't say those words three words I have never heard three words he couldn't say Yet he remains today In love

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Quantum Steps

Where is the source that we've never seen 

We know it was with us when we all came to be Traces of value yet uncertainty and oh how we miss them, so why did they leave?

Alive yet barren they existed, with nothing and everything unseen quantum-like thresholds, to be transcended - when the time was right

Discovery lay before them, finding what had always been discovering what was always there for twin flames and soul mates made self aware

Pure thoughts of recognition were borne in the whitest light casting shadows on the past drawn forward by life

Acelerating bands moving outward expanding from pin points, to expose new vistas behind - those who moved too slowly or held back by their silver threads

They were the starlight becoming our hope twin flaming lovers and soul mates eloped daring to leave us, their source was their own yet we can still see them, their essence still glows

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Kissed by the River

Like storied beginnings we know there's an end but a river runs through us to-day 

it saves us from emptiness kissed near its banks 

though our wishes together may wane

Long days of longing and longer the nights 

We walked cold from our subsided pyres 

like a river that flows without life -has no life like a river, 

our lives were those nights

Kissed by the river, adorned by its light 

sheltered by kindness and love 

showed us the way to the new waters edge 

we know its beginning, but we don't know the end 

still it follows the river - and will leave us as friends

Something so new and so wonderful borne 

like sun dappled waves given birth each with beginnings 

and each with an end 

and we watch them together in love

ride on the river and taste its sweet light

imagine still onwards- the sea 

The salt like that kiss sweeps us on to the end 

where our wishes and hopes set us free

Ride on the river, or kiss on its banks 

and salty - that kiss finds the sea know river's beginning, 

we may know its end 

but its depth wished and hoped soon shall be

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Long Goodbyes

Lovers enamoured are stealing their glances 

nothing deters their soft gaze 

pained by their parting the moment enhances 

sweet sorrow of romance is plain

Fingers will linger but longer the kiss 

Soft lips burn passion's desire 

Sparks surging into the heart of their matter 

and leaving them tortured by fire

Words suffer silence - they cannot be said 

with time in its perilous flight 

For words are not worthy in moments like those 

so unspoken they cut like a knife

"Tell me you love me", "I'm branded, I'm your's" 

Mark them on leaving - that day 

If life was to end in an instant - no fear 

Just together, together, they pray

Minds spin in ecstacy, hearts loving free 

'til finally leaving they sigh 

the parting is over the pining begins 

for they love these exquisite goodbyes.

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Children of Mercy

The child of gentle mercy took years for him to know 

and had they met what little chance or time for them to grow

Then somewhere down the road long years when paths were set 

like sailors heading eastward in convoys heading west

A world that cut no favours yet somehow still they met 

though chance for them was faded two hearts could be impressed

Fate delivered destinies and love enough to know 

Their choice of steps made promises together they'll grow old

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Space

On one's deathbed nobody will ever say "give me more space"

Space is silent, and vast between two people who have stopped talking to each other

Space... the last frontier is anxiety provoking, love and hate are dynamically induced in the astronaut who loves the trip, but longs for mother earth

Space, is a cure-all for too much stuff but with no limits to space how do you find the stuff you're looking for? and how do you know what you've found isn't really someplace else too, because with infinite stuff in infinite space how could you think straight?

Lost in space, you may last forever circling like a comet, or burn up in a star with the ass of your spacesuit on fire

Space is owned by nobody, but everybody owns space

My mind traverses space faster than the speed of light One blink and I'm there since, eyes closed, there is no space but there is emptiness - without you

Spaced out, outer Space, inner Space inner place, inner join, not cold and lonely but warm and filled like the cup -not half empty that space, but space half filled

In space, parsecs can stretch out their parallax angles for a whole second It took me lightyears to learn that! Normal people never say, give me some parsecs Thats too far really, too far

My space, abhors a vacuum, like nature does it wants all the stuff you can put into it but for a man of simple needs the thing I need most in my space is you

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Changed by Looking

You look at me and I change I'm not the same as I was 

with no explanation for this its what your looking does to me 

my window opens for your eyes only So your view is unique 

No one else can see through your portal even I cannot 

because your looking changes me 

I never see the me you see 

I can only be the one I am who changes when you look at me

My eyes were closed, and I was asleep 

but you stirred from rest and looked at me 

but by looking I changed, suddenly waking to see you 

no longer asleep - we make love did the looking change us?

I looked at you and you changed 

I saw beauty and grace 

but then your window opened and I saw an ocean of love 

so I dove in- on the spur of that moment 

My looking sent me for a swim but your looking let me in 

we change in each others eyes 

from the ones we are to the ones we can be

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In Natural Light

In the clear light of the day when our secrets are displayed 

I saw the truth revealed between us and its made me feel this way

I don't need another reason to make my next decision 

Uncovered by the window dressings Illuminated by the omnipresent sun

I saw you in the natural light your heart was clear and bright no storms could dull the softness of it or its silken shape so slight

unshadowed first communion solar diamonds played without confusion 

impressed us with what we could see and feel, instictively as we move on

The wonder of love in mornings glow a closeness never known 

communicated souls in heavens grace where true love only grows

Better days, ahead recall aided by the one we saw natural light 

and natural law together, somehow, where we belonged

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No,no,no

I wish that I could find the words so I could tell you what its like being downtown in the city watching all the people on the street

And she don't care - no she's not thinking of me She doesn't know that - I'm alive She don't care - 'sides maybe there's another that's she's in love with - What chance have I?

Well I head out on the street until I can get some sleep I know someday soon we'll meet Until that moment ...

So I head out on the street hoping somewhere soon we'll meet and until then - baby please Keep looking for me

I promise not to be annoying But can you try to understand? I can't keep on the way I'm going cause after all,I'm - just a man

No, no, no, don't freak out or say you hate me Just because I've lost my nerve Yes, Yes, Yes - For sure, I'll always love you And I will give you what you deserve

Well I head out on the street until I can get some sleep I know someday soon we'll meet Until that moment ...

So I head out on the street hoping somewhere soon we'll meet and until then - baby please Keep looking for me

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Render unto Caesar

The price of love is paid these days in blood and sweat and tears 

where nothing in this world is free and our pleasures cause us fear 

No wishes made for peace and harmony within this universe or hope for true love is delivered 

as love through us alone is cursed unless Caesar has approved it 

A simple smile, or glance between us shall raise the wrath of God 

and summer storms of sixth degree that all should fail their cause 

and leave us shattered on the street and wounded by the laws 

but kings and queens show deference to their subject's supplication 

and pass their judgement more cautiously to the weak's humiliation 

Or better still the mangey few who understood at once their need -

and kept them happy where they slept 

dreaming we all are the fools in glass and stone they seek 

but who actually throw them biscuits, floral wrapped 

so the mighty once placated may suffer us the love we share 

or less likely confiscate it 

For no Caesar could command that force, -our love cannot be earned 

or gained in battle to the death such love would just be spurned 

Its fused in spirit not the flesh 

no way to change the heart 

Only battered souls coincident 

at least this much we've learned

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Friendship, love and lust

So what's the way you feel with me? he asked his fair companion the 'what' you guessed- while still feeling fine, she answered in this fashion the friendship, love, and lust I've felt it comes at different times and I've no shame to feel that way when your're with me - oh love of my mine

but then the way we were today... we walked and ran and played We've never needed words for fill and time just slipped away I love the satisfaction of days glowing to their end and never have I felt - as fine since I could count you friend

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Photonic Dreams

What's that?! He's been dreaming again- 

not working with other things to do 

Because his mind is racing with intoxicating and enchanting thoughts of who? 

But the screen shining, blankly is flickering or is it winking 

Like a changeling temptress of whom he's been thinking 

Imagining it's keys pipeline to her mind - flowing and caressing a

nd mystically winds his thoughts to her door 

That light box could be a window to her soul 

One great eye into which they may both fall - limitless falling 

Oh grant him that he shall never land 

How can this mechanical thing perversely link him to her? 

Indelibly marked by memories or are these just dreams too? 

He knows why, and remembers how 

one evening what shone was moonlight 

which mingled with his keyboard friend, 

there upon them casting shadows of light and dark, 

good and bad, 

right or wrong 

with winged spectral harpists whispering 

then urging them to go on 

And finally moving into the light which beckoned - 

then surrounded them with the warm glow of friends - 

faces gone but hearts remaining 

a blissful union there - for ever more - until the end 

His machine has become a mental cue, 

and a strange one at that 

conjuring up such recollections by the video screen 

he sits at 

Drawn beyond the light now 

into the darkness of Her room 

washed with her scent upon the sheets 

which further sealed the night 

And there, coupled but not by the photonic chains of mail 

that never stop 

It seems, there was only their own essence 

as they sailed away into his dreams

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Patricia Maxine

I was there when she slipped away 

quietly weeping I wondered what she thought 

A shadow of the person that I knew lay before me 

Yellow and weak, and bluster gone 

Part of me went with her 

And a piece of my heart is numbed by the loss 

But life goes on

I was there when she slipped from us 

The few who stayed to watch 

And each of the last breaths she took tore at my soul 

Those were my last breaths too

Anyone who has seen the face of death 

Is afraid no more 

But I never saw that face for I saw only you 

And what I saw made me so afraid 

That I was wasting time and filling days 

without meaning until you showed me the way

Now not a day goes by 

when I don't think of you 

How I miss you so, my Patricia

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Painful Voice

A smokey dive where dimly lit

a score of broken hearted sit 

joined in song in chorus with a painful voice to voiceless hits

Loving, losing, leaving strains or songs 

to mommas, trucks or trains

the DJ hurts with each refrain 

ensconced in Karaoke pain

Too many beers and cigarettes, 

Hearts brimming with the blues 

Lives well lived not long but hard, 

whose dreams not sweet 

came true 

From corner seat she reaches out 

and penetrates the scene 

drawing looks back to her booth, 

how remarkable had it been

That woman's crying in the bar, 

God knows she's been abused 

Her voice as painful as it sounds and bleating out of tune

Cloistered small and shoulders hunched, battle worn and scarred 

The painful voice and friend who sing are sharing with the bar 

One note or phrase or whose to say 

what captures distant thought 

But when the moment seizes her 

she gives it all she's got

No word is heard, no melody, 

musicality's away barking recognition 

with her memory all a haze 

No one laughs at painful voice they've heard her song before 

She's earned the right to sing that tune 

and keep coming back for more

In smokey bar the crowd goes by, 

each night they start anew 

The painful voice that sings todayreturns in time for you

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Not Friends

Once we were good friends but now we don't meet 

We'd talk on for hours but now we don't speak 

And candlelit dinners were eaten on the floor 

But now I don't see you anymore

How did that all come to happen? That's not what good friends are for! So here I sit alone and forgotten Because we're not good friends anymore

Once I could call you and chat for a while It seemed there was nothing not said by and by and sometimes we'd sit and just watch the TV But now you won't even call me

I could come over and show you my thoughts Words that were writen but poetry not Still that was enough to sustain us my friend But now I feel this is the end

How did that all come to happen? That's not what good friends are for! So here I sit alone and forgotten Because we're not good friends anymore

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Musical Sex

There they are - knife blade's chopping - clacking, slicing, snipping rythmically clipping 

There they go - piston pump's pumping - snorkling, pocca pocketing and musically thumping Here they come - steam engine's steaming - chug chuggalug chugging 

Are we really just like that? NO! 

At least we try not to think so. 

We make music panting, heaving, sighing and sometimes laughing and crying 

But when cold humans come together, coldly, it is a prickly pot of mechanical parts and picks 

So their vibrating tool is humming, clicking, whirring 

Strangely satisfying, while buzzing and tantalizing 

she with wet lips and fingers fools herself as she dreams on 

and sooths herself too 

And he no better plays it all by ear 

beat - beat - beating Whap - whap - whapping and drum - drum - drumming 

with his one good hand 

Its a caccaphony of misery when playing in the one man band! 

Then coming together again, moaning and groaning 

Huffing and puffing, squeaking and shaking as they rattle and roll 

Oh Momma! it is a symphony of ecstasy 

as they play their song 

Slurping and sucking as they are passionately fucking 

Until symbols clashing their music is gone. 

But somewhere in the distant hills 

The memory of that melody echoes still 

Like some catchy tun you can't turn off 

compelling you to play it again and again 

Since your first heard it in the distance or through the wall 

in some small town 

where a pickup group is apickin and agrinnin 

or as a nifty little ditty in a disco city 

and the beat goes on and on

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Maple Dreams

Sitting on the doorstep of their neighbor's front porch Staring at the sunlight dappling through the maple leaves He was sitting by her, speaking words to guide her and he took her to his world - a land of make believe They didn't see tomorrow, forgot about yesterday all they needed was there and then, loving her, - he felt that way Running round were children some were his - some hers and the house where they lived seemed to bustle all the time Just like sun soaked tree leaves they were all so happy Red and gold were colours of the love he gave to her Circling round were memories just like the falling leaves And all the things they left behind were blown about by the breeze Singing songs and playing games where everybody knows their names Thats what they were thinking sitting on the front doorstep that day

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Lonely but Not in Love

Emotions are responses to our love's profound attachements but happiness is only one of the possible reactions and loneliness may come along and sift between the cracks confusing us with feelings while disguised by cloak and hat

Do you recall the reasons when you thought you fell in love? Overcome with those emotions you weren't circumspect enough! We're hungry when we're lonely, and the souls who come our way are out there looking for us and they're feeling just the same

Its human feeling lonely, hoping loneliness will fade But little reason for a match if love could seize the day Had you understood your motives and entered with them known you'd have fallen into love but where there's feelings that you own

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The Thin Grey Line

Outside ourselves's a thin grey line where sky and earth collide 

where all around are questions and each choice hard to decide

Which way is up, and which is down for all we see is fog 

each step is like a leap of faith and certainty's in shrouds

Out here's a place so distant its a no man's land of sorts 

failing to provide a soul with means to chart one's course

But course is set in fool's gambit we race to meet our end 

soaring through a starless soup 'lectronics understand

Then suddenly the sun bursts through and what a sight 

that is wondrous glow and warmth engulfs with happiness and bliss

A little trust goes light years on our never ending trip 

relinquish helm at times like these to fate or hidden grip

Will me home then silver wings entrusted love with thee 

and if you fail to take me there I'll die more peacefully 

Than had I simply stayed on ground and plodded day by day 

Not wondering where path would wind where each bend was all I'd see

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In the Zone

My head is numb and I cannot think 

there's numbers racing round my eyes like rings 

Bunch of people looking down on me 

I'm too busy playing with my fucking strings 

Time is flying by and days go too 

Such a waste when I'm here with you 

In the zone where nothings clear I can't see, but I can feel you breathe 

Smell your scent, feel your heat I won't look at you - but I see your knees 

In the zone, in deep freeze 

Close enough to touch you and hear your heartbeat 

Where are you, where are we? 

We used to be people now we're history 

My eyes are gone my face is white 

Everything around me's such a fucking fright 

Too many people, did we go to far? 

Got on the bus and should have used my car 

Swinging tubes gonna hurt my brain 

Just a minute after I've gone insane 

In the zone, I'm not free 

Smell your body, feel your heat 

Touch my skin, hear me breathe 

Where are you, where are we?

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Ideas

An idea passed my way and drifted through my mind 

like wind blowing through a willow 

it flowed through and changed me 

then left me wondering how we'd be the same 

until the ideas flowing aound us came through our windows 

and into our souls 

Changing our thoughts and bending our minds 

blowing in like a hurricane and changing us forever 

Like a childhood ravaged by adult notions 

Or converts struck dumb by faith flowing in 

like a summer breeze and toying with our emotions 

before leaving ringing chords on our wind chimes 

to remind us they've been and gone stealing in 

like a thief in the night robbing us of our self confidence 

we're left to wonder how we got here polarized, differentiated, ostrasizied 

We who would be empty vessels half empty, and half full 

Just cups of a different shape or colour 

Until filled with our own heady but often foul brew of ideas

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I think I'll like you

Yeah - I think I'll like you - that's not gonna be enough 

Sure I'm looking at you - cause I know your nut is tough 

Now you're looking past me but you're hoping I'm the one 

Cause you're sick of looking past me and you want to have some fun

Come on, I wanna interest you baby 

Maybe you'll be interesting too 

I've been liking what I'm seeing 

So whatcha gonna do?

Did you have something to say - well I've got something too 

It's my life story and there's a page in it for you 

Yeah - I think I'll like you - that's not gonna be enough 

You'd better like me baby if you wanna fall in love

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Henry Hyde

Henry Hyde had an affair years ago, its on the internet They're swirling rumours round him and they're not giving up as yet Its not important why he did it only that he did It doesn't matter who she was or what he felt or said We're not machines you switch on and off and urges never quit so acting on them weaving tangled webs of truth and lies. Lives continually getting flushed down a drain of piss and shit filled up with raw emotion into a heady brew of human waste in a never ending cycle>don't give it a second thought or you'll be torn to bits When love and lust fall in the mix people are ground to dust But they're never changed by the process their life is the catalyst I feel sorry for Henry Hyde his only mistake is that he had loved too well and perhaps too much>

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Home

The aroma of fresh cookies filled our cosy yellow home 

With Magnificent Chocolate Chips so much like Mom used to make, 

that love was in the air 

Vases adorned the table with roses and white lillies 

Fresh and clean, vivid as only the present can be 

Music wafted in from every corner 

Lush piano bar music that dripped with sultry sounds 

hinting of quieter times and hidden memories 

Flickering at the hearth a warm and inviting fire, 

blazing enough to warm the soul and toes 

In that glow, the first kiss through the door was heaven on earth, 

a blessing and a recompense for everything 

that had ever come before or could possibly transpire 

until the end of days

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handwriting

Handwriting is a window into the soul watch how quickly it reflects the truth long after embellishment leaves the words and character remains The very ideas melting onto the page like a candle dripping etching and sometimes burning brightly flickering until out as if all thought had ended then suddenly as if sparked by some unseen force flickers yet again in darkness the light will shine like words piercing silence - words always words must be spoken to live and writen to endure

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Grains of Sand

Up here the wind whips the thin air into a frenzy Grand Vistas sweep for no one but the Gods Rising up from nowhere reaching endlessly pushed relentlessly by inner fires the mountain kings shall yield

Their significance slips by unnoticed in the seamless reach of time like the endless wash of surf on grains of sand they are the beach and the shore defining continents

The slow motion ice tide comes in with its huge breakers crashing over the rocky coast Stripping every living thing every stubborn barnacle in their path

And the sky stays gray and dark, no blue is seen hidden by the dust of millenia churned up by accidental visitors from outer space Our sun, the alpha and the omega waits patiently for spring

Measured against these walls our heights are pitiful Red rocks and golden rays illuninate the highest spires and deepest canyons at dusk or dawn Down below the wash of ages rushes by carrying with it every rock and stone to meet their salty brothers by the sea

Deeper still the depths where no human ever stirred Darkness means nothing here its always dark until their grizzly headlights come and its in the crush of water, with the weight of the world on everything, everywhere in dead silence where life may begin again

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Frost Returns

Along the boulevardes of spring I've walked And hand in hand felt warmth of sun and you Under the full and vernal orb we've talked With give and take found sweet caress too few

So many plans, have come and gone my dear My words seem pale compared to how I feel How could one say those words to you I fear Mocking sentimentality though real

But then come nights when the full moon will rise Frosted icing with me lies no longer You've turned from the wall and feigning surprise Requiring service of men I wonder

How we've lived and loved so deeply just then Will frost return to melt away again?

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I Love My Friend and Wife

You must be me giving something because though we’ve never touched I look forward and see nothing and still I feel too much You just lift me up higher where air is fresh and rare and hours we pass will sometimes seem too hard for me to bear Oh – but what a feeling has come over me and when I think I’m going down I turn around and my heart has sung a different kind of song Its you that makes it play that tune, as one day we’ll meet again I’m just soaring – lifted up by seeing you – we’ll meet again – but when? Oh what’s that feeling that’s come over me? – when I think I’m rising high I turn around and then my mind just tells a different kind of lie “I’m only caught flat footed and broken by the loneliness of that day” Its not you that twists me turning in the wind when I see you’ve turned away “Don’t get too close!” love promised me but that promise was a lie Then I got close, too close for friends, and friendship surely died And friendship is, that after all, which made me want to stay But with those feelings haunting will they chase friendship away? She loves me, and I love she – there is no love triangle For I know love, I’ve loved before and this is my denial God strike me down for I have found a love I can rely on and if That’s the reason I can stay, then why am I still lying? And what kind of love is that my friend? When I can’t do without Your face, your voice, your gentle words that flow from lovely mouth? A curse be placed upon that love, its not what I had planned I did not ask to be in love, the Devil took my hand! If I’ve become an anecdote in a litany of men Those notches gone won’t soon return but I 'll still call you friend The world goes on and I must too, so I’ll face another day Infatuated with another,one a friend won’t turn away A different kind of love but far from love that stays Its born of distance once removed will finally dissipate Now I know its possible to love a friend and love will hold things true Who never touch, they’ll always hurt, good friends have heartaches too God gave me love and love I do, a fellow human being, just one Who got so close to me and all from just our meeting And those feelings within me? Don’t look! They’re locked and sealed. You’ll never open up that book, they’ll never be revealed It’s the price I pay and I live this way, we two will never be And what we have or might have had is not for us to see But love is good and I feel fine – I like what love has done! Each day those feelings transform me and create a new someone. An exhilarating rush of thoughts has changed my view of life I’m better now than I have been, I love both my friend and wife.

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Food for thought

You are so far away but in my mind you're still here beside me 

Its playing tricks with this lonely plebe While thinking is such nobility But you're so far away and though I remember, I still can't feel and though I dream , 

It just won't be and though I hope, I can't believe. 

So will you think of this when next we meet? and treat my senses until I leave, so crossing the border I perceive You'll keep me safe and warm and in love with thee.

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Fireballs in the Mirrors

Forget the past, your how now's and where for's! 

Its always there Hour glass sand which knows no past, no where from 

Still tumbles through time It leads us to this moment, one of possibilities 

Though gone suddenly - its replaced Like fireballs in the mirrors of a setting sun 

We'll see it again - tomorrow

Taking time, savouring life 'cause it won't last 

Mountain tops look down on fleeting moments 

But we'll have our present, filled with choices 

Decisions made quickly then lived out 

Like fire flies glowing in the deep summer night 

They're thin points of light - on a lonely road

Out there who knows who's watching 

Only, from a distance everything stands still 

But we're on that road and we're moving on 

Two wheels rolling, moving like the wind 

There because of the past, and there for the present 

The past's converging but ahead there's a thousand suns 

And we'll take them on one by one

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Finger Dance

Silver shadows danced while deft and dark they searched the shores of Rio 

Fingers reached while breathing deeply - gliding seething snakes in halos 

Burned temptations tips by titillation flared 

the way the wind blows lower than the heady brew 

It blew still kept where no one knows 

Oh to break that sureal stillness and simpering wetness 

Not filling ears with searing words or fumbling low caresses 

Another place once yesterday urging hands or finger presses 

electric moments forward to completion 

In these dimly lit recesses 

Better still than empty hours the solitary spark refreshes 

empty souls from empty beds which time alone addresses 

won’t waste away, another day in hopeless webs that blessed us 

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Evil Exes

Images incinerated in some candlelit ritual 

Snarling names uttered in contempt by single gender covens 

Inflicting pins and needles 

They sinned, and were imperfect 

Disloyal and unfaithful, 

They lied, and they cheated 

Now exe's to be vilified 

Still fathers and mothers had them 

but they were the worms 

The scum of the earth 

Harassing, pestering, foul filth 

We ease the pangs of emotional detachment 

from these hateful hurtful beings 

That we once loved

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Even More

Don't take me for granted I'm here for you now but that may not always be so Send me flowers, bring me chocolate, write me poetry and rub my feet and if you do then I will love you even more

Don't look over there when I am here for one day you'll turn and I'll be gone dote on me, praise me, touch my hair and hold me, just hold me and if you do then I will love you even more

Don't speak to her, don't dance with her when I am here and all alone for if you leave I might be gone on your return talk to me, touch me soul, and move with my spirit Just stay with me and if you do then I will love you even more

I'll hold you close and have your child I'll buy your clothes and send you smiles I'll warm your bed and ease your worried mind when times are tough and life gets bland I'll still be there to hold your hand Don't take me for granted, Don't gaze away, and I will love you even more

kayaky

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Devotion

This woman has feelings - this is no rag doll in his arms As he holds her close she clings on expecting safety from him not harm With a fragile heart which may be broken by a callous word of his if spoken And yes - made to sing with joy through simple kindness or affection What at first was shallow emotion is now moved by deeper devotion A woman that speaks through her every motion and in her eyes a greater ocean of vulnerability asking only "please take care with me" Such a responsibility he's accepted and done so honestly - and won't fail or disappoint

This woman has beauty - this is no dime store trinket that he holds Dark hair, pale skin and smile illuminating sky Wouldn't any man find her fair and seek her out or try to woo her given half a chance - and love her too on second glance Would see the beauty there entranced by the good mother and angel longing now for sweet romance

She has life - he feels her heart beating and senses each breath she's breathing sharing the same with he Can anyone say where this is leading or where they will go concerned more that somehow there by mistreating will someday break her heart In that evil deed - he'll take no part preferring that he would never start upon a path with her left to understand somehow why yet again she'd lost another man rather she's found instead a greater good and loving friend who'll stay with her and help her in any way he can

kayaky

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Dancing With You

I want to dance with you I want to watch your body move in time with mine Sweet locomotion, it's when I'm with you I feel so fine Can you feel the music the way I do? It's rippling down to my feet It's like I'm walking on air whenever we meet because I'm dancing with you

Way down there pulusates the beat It's sliding and pumping away in my veins Or is it just my heart pounding because I'm looking your way and I understand why being with you makes me a better man I feel alive, I'm in love and nothing else matters as long as you are in my arms and I'm dancing with you

You are a vision to me when you're spinning around and I see you toss your hair back So take me with you when you go - you just have to lead and I'll follow The lights have all gone down, can it be we're all alone? I can feel my skin tingle as you brush by and I'm so happy by your side Because I'm dancing with you

You're laughing and its a beautiful thing I'm holding you close, and without thinking I've started to sing - and why shouldn't I sing to the woman I love - who's in my arms The music has long since stopped but our melody keeps playing and I can't wait to get you home We won't need that band, its beautiful music we'll be making when I'm dancing with you tonight

My head is in the clouds, my feet are in the stars I love you woman its so plain to see Nothing is more important to me than to have you close Maybe we'll go out tonight Maybe turn up the heat tonight Forever things will be all right if we are Dancing together, you and me

kayaky

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Things I meant and could not say

You were overtaken by the day falling away , 

swept into deep rest until the morning 

Where waking from some dream were pressured by the hour 

and found No words from me to say how much I loved you

Simple words never weighed so much 

On my heart or hung more heavily on my tongue 

By day found their place in my work 

Things I meant and could not say 

For fear of losing myself in their power 

things I should have said meant less not more that way

I had slipped between flannel sheets 

In darkness, shadows freed from light 

And laid against my one true love whose warmth against the bitter night 

was refuge for my troubled mind No sweeter moment better shared 

Though that truth could not be told

My eyes closed tight, world finally calm cocooned in warmth 

with you that night no uttered words to wrong or overflow the cup 

Of love so deep, which born of youth and ripened through time 

had swadled us in that cradle of mine

Ever present and constant I feared 

And held on tighter for 

With the passing of years like a leap into blackness 

like the darkness of that night headlong into the future 

prayed you would always be there

No longer separate our lives entwined 

Memories melded, history enshrined 

More years together than apart 

Perhaps that fear was just a dream 

For you’d always been there for me

kayaky

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Chances Are

Chances are, you'll be laughing right out loud and thinking how we never had a prayer Telling all your friends you were just hoping it would end and trying not to let me down too hard

Chances are - I ll be staying up at night And watching nothing much on the TV Trying not to think of you and me and the way things used to be, or could have been

Chances are - we'll get on with our lives and how different after all could people be What attracted us was gone and the love's not coming on Just a moment like many others passed us by

Chances are the sun will rise again and birds will fill the air once more with song But your voice will not be heard and my heart will still be hurt cause the leaver left the loser lost in time

And chances are you'll find yourself another who gives you more than I could ever do buy you clothes and fur and take you round the world

Its what I would have done if chances had not played an hand with me and you

kayaky

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Cell Phones Selfish

Simply speaking's so supernatural sometimes 

Upon the Sea of sound and fury 

So important, so accessible and so alive 

Connected to the collective, connected to the hive dancing bytes and pixels mix messages with noise voice mail misinforms us, there's conversations to avoid 

Cell phone selfish and day- minding foolish 

as organized as attached as busy keeping busy 

could tackle any task 

Waiting for someone or thing to ring yank their chains 

chomping at the bit are we to communicate again 

words never reach them from the bedside - 

drowned out by vibrations or beeps as loud as a shout 

You'regetting this 

and just getting that 

while ignored, you've forgotten 

the one before you sat 

I'll talk to you without the sky between us 

I'll touch your face again my dear 

There'll be no telephones to defeat trust 

When I look into your eyes 

We're cell phone foolish, 

cell phone selfish fools 

connected but protected 

from a simple human touch 

A face to face encounter 

that will always mean so much

kayaky

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Angel's Heart

Who saw you fall sweet angel 

when the arrow pierced your heart 

Launched quickly from the darkness 

but it surely found its mark 

A senseless barb of poison 

had been calculated there 

to find the source of dreams and hope 

that danced as light as air

He knows too well what makes you cry 

and aims from his deep despair 

To snatch those moments from your grasp 

just when you start to care

And he would sit and watch you fall 

not rush to catch your heart 

or save it from the venom 

which is breaking it apart.

But who wouldn't try and save your soul 

and see your heart released 

And who wouldn't cry and reach for you 

that saw that hurtful deed. 

Who saw that arrow - watched its flight 

and saw it piercing you 

could not stand idly watching - 

that'is something He would do.

Love lost is found 

not with the one who promised it was true 

But with another 

Who hearing words 

found no ugliness in you 

Instead its beauty that was found 

and dwell's in angel's heart 

so Collect your hope and dream again 

tomorrow a new love will start

kayaky

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Ancient sky

Soaring High on darkened wings through red rimmed sky at dusk 

Far down below are city lights where cars and strangers fuss

A sea of life that fits so well in palm of outstretched hand 

But nothings changed since leaving ground no reach brings touch again

Night comes on with grey and black deserted by the sun 

Gitchee Gumee looms large and cold and slivered moon is hung

Fade away to cerulean where sibling crescents glow old as time 

one burns one shines through flight we've come to know

Circles upon circles A patagonian scape magical 

and perhaps unseen except in ancient days

In mystic Machu Pichou Up where the world seemed small 

and clouded by a coca haze Were humbled by it all

But nows the time to be alive speed makes the sunset last 

just chase the sky forever and this sunset shall not pass

kayaky

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Email in a Bottle

A message drifts ashore one day which some ancient rhyme had thrown away and flotsam found was read that way, as if its words had worth to say by hapless soul beachcomber who, beside the surf saw what they knew to be a text with meaning true - was quickly read then misconstrued

The message was in point of fact a harmless jest and artifact not meant to sway or mental test but prompt a laugh within one's breast alas the plebe who found it where read words and meaning never there and changed his life upon that dare between the lines au bord du mer

Packed up his house and left his friends in search of treasures round the bend not knowing that beneath his quest lay foundations not of stone but jest then left behind a sorry mess in vain it seemed but strange at best would find by chance a treasure chest of wisdom that escaped his grasp

For having searched and strived for gold discovered back in days of old the treasures that he thought he sought were really what he had - then lost so back he went and claimed anew his rightful home and family too who welcomed back that sheepish plebe then tossed his rhyme back to the sea

The moral of this simple tale is caution when receiving mail a message that would change one's life and throw to waste one's friends or wife For jetsam is not sage advice lest first its weighed then set aside to be confirmed in passing time, then careful be if one confides

kayaky

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Loving Losing Leaving

Seems you found yourself another You don't come round here no more So I'm wondering now all by myself what my future has in store

Well I remember how we used to laugh Sure we must have had good times so we won't be having fun together But could we have fun if we still tried

Something good has gone amiss here I don't usually have self doubts and I looked around inside me wondering what its all about

being dumped for some one else 

Left behind by one you loved for more than just two arms to hold them 

or something else put them above * 

Its just the same old sad sad story, thats been told a million times 

Somebody's heart is overflowing 

While someone's heart is broke inside * 

don't you know that love will leave you when you thinks its here to stay 

Don't you think its kind of funny? 

Things can work out wrong that way

But I'd have rather had the love that left me 

then just seen them walk away 

And I wouldn't keep my heart safe up on the shelf 

Though its on the floor today